Have you gotten to a place in your motherhood journey where you were so far away from what you had ever imagined and it made you question everything? Your faith. Your abilities. Your confidence. Your purpose. Whether you are a good mom or a good wife. Everything you dreamed and expected of motherhood is shattered in the face of the harsh reality you now find yourself in.
Caught in the rush of endless demands, yet unsure about what to do with the uncertainty that plagued my soul. How do I navigate through this hard season in my life and motherhood journey with all the questions that I had? This made me very discouraged at first. When you’re going through a difficult season in your life. Especially when you’re at the verge of giving up. We all wish the voice of God would be so loud and audible, telling us what to do in those desperate moments.
But I had to first face the hard truth. Which was that, I had been trying to do it all on self-effort and self-reliance. Relying on my knowledge, ability and strength and it was very exhausting. I was at my wits end and had nothing left to give. I was very unhappy and miserable, and it spilled over into every part of my life especially my family life. I wasn’t enjoying life as mom, my relationships suffered and even my work which took up so much of my time. I felt helpless and so alone.
This was a pivotal moment for me because I knew that something had to change if not, I didn’t know how I would make it. I am a Christian mom and Christ follower and I trusted in God to guide me. But I was clearly not listening or adhering to His Word because I was too busy running from one task to another with an overwhelmed schedule and a weary soul.
Realizing that I couldn’t do it all was probably the lowest moment of my life. It was a humbling truth that I had wrestled so hard to admit but I had to be truly honest with myself. I couldn’t do it all on my own strength. I had to stop running and pause to consider what was going on in my own soul. I had to give up trying to be in control of everything and let God alone truly be in control.
I had to let go of my unrealistic expectations about motherhood and completely lean on the Holy Spirit to strengthen me to do the most important tasks. And rely on the infinite wisdom of God to guide me in the commitments that really matter most. This has set me free as a mom and put my weary soul to rest. To rest in His strength, His ability, His wisdom and His power that enables me to do much more than I would have ever imagined according to His power at work in me (Ephesians 3:20)
My prayer and hope is that, you too would stop running from task to task and stand still. Pause and slow down long enough to consider what’s going on in your soul because it’s only then, that He will lead you on a path to find rest in Him.
Dear Lord, help me to let go of unrealistic expectations, unnecessary pressure and the need to be in control of everything. I lean on You, Holy Spirit to strengthen me for the most important tasks. And I rely on Your infinite wisdom to guide me in the commitments that matter most. I rest in Your strength, wisdom and power to do all that You have called me to do. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
Reflect on Truth
It is useless for you to work so hard from early morning until late at night, anxiously working for food to eat; for God gives rest to his loved ones.
Thus says the LORD: “Stand by the roads, and look, and ask for the ancient paths, where the good way is; and walk in it, and find rest for your souls.”