Worn Out and Exhausted.
After a long, exhausting day of juggling work, kids activities, household tasks, and so many other demands pulling at me, I collapsed. I sat on the couch to catch my breath when the kids were in bed.
I sat alone in the dark room and quietly pondered. I felt the stabbing feeling of stress like a sharp pain and pressure in my chest. Every breath was a reminder that I was still alive even though I sat there on the couch, in the dark, like a lifeless body succumbed to bone-deep exhaustion.
The tightness and heaviness over my neck and shoulders felt as if I was carrying the weight of the world on my little shoulders. My brain was tired and barely able to process anything at this point but my mind was restless and flooded with so many thoughts.
Dark thoughts that made me cringe at the fact that they even crossed my mind. I found myself wondering if life was worth living anymore because it felt like I was just existing. Going through the motions every day and just barely surviving. Can you relate?
All moms know the feeling of being overwhelmed and just surviving motherhood and life. Silently wishing that we could somehow escape our lives and all the obligations and responsibilities that are expected of us.
I did. I wanted to escape it all. So I begged God to just take my life and not wake me up the next day because I just couldn’t continue living life this way.
Life and motherhood was just too hard and certainly not what I had hoped. I just couldn’t do it anymore, so I was mentally resigning myself from everything.
I Give Up!
I can’t do this anymore, I muttered to myself as I cried out to the Lord.
Have you ever been there?
Every mom has a breaking point in this journey of motherhood. When it all just seems too much for you to bear anymore. And you wonder where you’ll get the strength to keep on going.
Have you felt so weak and had no more fight left in you to make it through another day? I’ve been there. That’s exactly how I felt in that moment.
Only about a few minutes had gone by as I sat there, but that moment felt like eternity. Then as if God reached down to snatch me out of this dark place, a thought that brought a glimpse of hope crossed my mind.
There’s Got to be More to Life Than This.
In a moment of desperation, with a flood of tears raining down my face, the only prayer I could utter in that instance were, “GOD HELP ME!”
I repeated these words over and over again until I could sense an unusual courage rise up within me and a glimpse of hope that shattered the darkness that surrounded me.
I spoke His name over and over again because it was the only thing I knew to do in that moment. And then, I began to sense hope rise up in my heart again.
Romans 15:13, “May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.”
I was also reminded of God’s Word in John 10:10, “The thief comes only in order to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have and enjoy life, and have it in abundance [to the full, till it overflows].
The Wellspring of Life and Strength.
This Word was so powerful and like a sharp two-edged sword. It penetrated my heart and soul, slaying every dark thought and revived hope in my heart like never before. This was a moment of truth that has changed my life forever.
What is the pivotal moment for you that changed everything?
Are you wondering where you’ll get the strength to keep on going in this journey of life and motherhood?
Friend, I invite you to join this gracefully broken mother, who wants nothing more than to point you to the true wellspring of life and strength: JESUS!
He doesn’t require strength for the journey, he offers it. To anyone who wants his strength for this sacrificial and sacred calling of motherhood.
We dare not rely on our own strength. We need God’s strength for the journey of motherhood.
Your life and journey of motherhood may not be what you had hoped but God has promised you so much more.
An abundant life, an enjoyable life, life to the full, till it overflows. And that life can only be found in Him. In a relationship with Him. Abiding with Him. Resting in Him. Leaning on Him and absolute trust in Him to give you the abundant life that He has promised.
Dear Lord, You have promised to give me life in abundance and to the full. Jesus, I want nothing less than the life that You died to give me. Help me to live and enjoy the abundant life that You have given me and rest in Your overflowing blessings in my life. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.